Keep me away from pains

Worst of the worst,The pain is killing.

I'm tired, I'm really tired, i don't know what to do right now ..

Something happened during midnight,Why do i have such an sis ?

I still rmb thatime, - will come and look for me but now? B, ask me to look for him... No one would care about me, Maybe only dad only. I regret treated him so bad, Yesterday he try helping me to stop sis, instead of thank him, i shout and scolded him. Everything's my fault. I told myself that i must change for the better but not just crying but i really can't. Maybe i'm still smiling but it wasn't the same anymore. People say that "Life is fill with 50% of sadness, 50% of happiness", but why mine, is like only 10% of happiness? Can anyone talk to me? as i've no friend to talk to. Any passerby or anyone tell me,how to make life more colourful ? I'm sorry to hongyao aldric and others, I've new friend and i forget the old one, i really didn't mean it. We'll meet more often, will us? Sorry to victor bro too, i didn't went to sa's birthday yesterday, Maybe only hongyao's the only true friend i have? i regretted treated him so bad! :( Why do i only know how to regret when i have lost it? Yesterday the one only say that she'll come find me is only E.Thank E. I've losted many true friend for such an short time.i don't wanna lost them anymore, I don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Come back, will they? ): ):

I REGRETTED!! I REGRET, I REGRETTED!!!!! I REALLY REGRETTEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!

To K,

I really don't know what i did that make you dislike me so much,

I know that i couldn't change the fact of you disliking me but could i just know the reason, why?